4 days here i am sangkut with the coursework
only ysterday my world suddenly jd brighter now already kelam again
i could even see my 20% terbang away

urrrgggghhh this is so frustrating!!
been working all day long on it but still it wont work!
i changed where i should and such
so where the hell did i do wrong!

it’s starting to piss me off
i guess i have to start all over again (which annoy me more; i could kill someone for real)
so yeah today only did the coursework nothing that
dumb kan? i cant help it but to compare myself with other people
there are people who had done the coursework and here i am struggling to even get a bit of it to work
that makes me even.. lost my motivation to do this properly

it’s so annoying
i could never get it done on time
why couldnt i get it to work? why cant i understand it? why? why?
i didnt study hard enough? how much work would be enough? until i really become insane then only it’s hard enough?
i took things too easy? i didnt put much effort in it?
just how much more do i have to give in to get things to go my way?
i’m totally sick of all these!
– bloody hell i’m losing myself
better stop writing more or i would get myself too depress

tomorrow’s plan :
- c programming until 1
- maths
- internet programming up until css
- coursework

i’m in a difficult position myself.. so yeah, dear me, please have some faith in myself
and just dont do anything stupid or follow my emotions

p/s : it’s annoying when the.. nevermind just checked.. it says
“When you can use SSH:
The SSH service may be very unreliable between 2am and 3am and users may be logged out at this time due to automatic system maintenance. It is strongly advised that students do not use SSH during this hour.”
no wonder my uploads dont make any different
pffftttttt *insert bad words here*
off to bed then =/

yep 5 days ~.~
i’ve become such a lazy ass today
didn’t do much, didnt wake up early etc etc
for some reason.. i simply feel like i dont give a damn about anything anymore (which that means, i’m in such a bad condition now, willing to back off anytime)
LOL i need to get back on my feet and do my best till the end ^^

anyway, today..
well i woke up just because mom called me xD
i didnt set the alarm clock (which is weird since i always do - nothing is more satisfying than sleeping like a baby ROFL)
did telecoms; finished with MM but i dont feel confident on those topics at all =/
that took me long cuz MM2 is hard, too much formula (any short cut people?)
it has.. DSB SC, SSB SC, and AM demodulation
the formula just doesnt make much sense to me
well.. i could understand on modulation but not demodulation
and and FDM.. 1 channel = 4kHz,
so 12 channels = 12 x 4 = 48kHz kan?
but, how does this true, standard group 12 voice channels = 60-108kHz? i misunderstood something? (i think i get it now but it doesnt really make that much sense =.0)
i got myself confuse over PAM and PCM (now sorted out i guess ^^) and.. ahh nevermind
i just figured a few things out haha

then.. looooooooong break; laundry + wii LOL
baseball is fun but i hate being the pitcher =.=

around 5.30 went to the lab (FINALLY!)
and.. got some help so now i need to work on it =D

around.. 11? xD (bummer!) started with maths on integration; left last 2 questions cuz i dont think my brain could digest anything properly tonight
it’s being slooooooooooooow is picking up since earlier this morning *cough cough 11am is still early*
stopped right before going to trig substitution which i had difficulty on before (last sem before totally understand it) and now already forgotten everything *lost memory.. i mean short term memory xD*

attempted c 2006 exam questions up to Q4 (while waiting laptop to start lol)
3 more questions to do tomorrow
i find this question confusing : (but not confusing for you awesome + clever + quick learner bastards =P)
x = 25;
x = x%2 ? x+3 : x+2;

yeah true that we (i) didnt do that sort of if/else before (but we did go tru it in java right? i cant remember on c since i cant even find the notes for that part)
understood it now, gonna write down why so that i could refer here if i hilang ingatan again LOL
x = 25%2 = 1
treat x+3 as TRUE and x+2 as FALSE
does 25%2 gives any answer? YES, 1
and thus, the answer is x=28 =D

let say if the question is :
x = 25%25 ? x+3 : x+2;
what would be the answer?
x would be x = 27 =D
why? same reason. modulus 25 = 0, and thus is it FALSE

yay~ i understand something new today ROFL xD

tomorrow’s plan :
- continue integration
- continue c 2006 questions
- continue with coursework + revise up to JS

i’m such a failure to stick to my plan
so it’s better not to really pack my time since my 1 hour break means 3 hours LOL

p/s : i’m not sure if something good happened to me earlier.. but for some unknown reason i feel.. happier? xD
must be that i’m getting closer to become FULLY INSANE! =D *err i shouldn’t smile while saying that right? xD*

so yeah.. need to do coursework now =D
happy stressing people! =D 5 more days! (4 to some of u folks that got paper on the.. 30th is it? or 29? 28? hehe =P)
well.. exam period starts next monday anyway ^^